andiecrafts

I have decided to stick to my current life. My present. A little of the past. Not because I feel nothing for you, but because I see that my present is much worth fighting for than you. I feel at a lost when I am with you. And even though sometimes I wish that when I find my way, you are there, I think that your presence just further plunges me into oblivion.

I realized that the reason why my present feels so wrong, is because I am not prepared to face this kind of life. I am young at heart, and I have goals that eat up the time for these kinds of relationships. If I let my past go, then that means that I am giving you a chance to destroy both our lives. I have somehow destroyed part of my life by plunging into this relationship I am into, and if I shall bring you along with me in my failures, I will not be able to forgive myself.

If two people are meant to be, it does not mean that they are meant to be together now. I will wait for the time that we could freely be ourselves. As for now, I will not quit on my present realtionship.I hope you will stop showing me signs that you like me.