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I feel a little stupid today. I lost the continuation of the December 8 entry, when I should have had that posted eons ago. I also feel stupid because of the new template I have. It is cute, and I guess it is partially true. And only that much I will admit for now.

Anyway, today is the first day of our CWTS immersion. I guess I am a mess from the mixture of emotions the activity has awoken in me. I am excited, overwhelmed, happy, anxious, ready, panicky, and everything else in between. I guess I am torn between the task of helping others and getting a good grade in this subject. Although a good grade is not exactly something I am obsessed about anymore, it still haunts me in a healthy way.

The funny thing about my current dilemma is that if I am able to achieve one, the other is most likely to follow. I guess it is just that I really dislike the fact that helping others will have to be so forced on us, and that if we do not get it right (which, by the way, is a most dissappointing and painful thing to experience), we suffer, which is not the essence of helping others out. Anyway, I guess I should stop complaining. THIS IS AN OPPORTUNITY TO HELP OTHER PEOPLE OUT!!! I guess I should always look at it that way, and start disrgarding other points of view. That may render me a very narrow-minded person, but I guess my CWTS experience would be much better if I view it in no other way than this.

PS: Count how many ‘guess’ there are in this entry.