AndieCrafts

I have always thought that bouncing back from horrible eperiences should not be that difficult. I have always thought that it all depended upon how positive a person’s outlook on life is. And once again, I am wrong. Once again, my logic has been proven deniable. Once again, I have proven my own self wrong, and once again, through a difficult and painful way.

I am being abused. My intelligence and my leadership is being taken for granted, and I am perfectly sure that my tolerance for this type of behavior has already reached way below the zero line. Instead of feeling intelligent and important, I am starting to view myself as useless and insignificant. It sure seems like nobody takes me seriously anymore. I am starting to wish I was born entirely stupid. If that should be the case, then whatever treatment I am currently recieving from other people becomes nothing short of fair. If they treat me better than they treat me now… dammit! Why can they not just treat me better NOW!

I am so thakful I got into Kalasag. Whatever I am gets appreciated here, is being put into perfect use (not underused or abused), and is being improved. The happiness I have felt in knowing that I am being appreciated for who I am has met its match not. I guess this happiness should be enough to sustain the strength of my soul for now.

P.S. I still feel damn worthless.