happy thoughts (plus harry potter hangover)
To rummage through one’s thought is a very tedious task. If I had a pensieve, it would have been a lot easier, but I guess my luck is not exactly something one could be extremely proud of. I have been trying to search my mind for happy thoughts and memories, and I should say that partly, the task was done in vain, and that the rest of it was successful.
Successful, because I have managed to walk away from the task remembering quite a few of the happiest moments of my life and understanding that even the simple art of remembering these moments could do wonders for my mood. In vain, since the more I try to remember the good, a lot of the bad gets remembered as well.
I have been trying extremely hard to be good-natured and sweet-tempered these past few days. I daresay it has been extremely difficult, but nevertheless fulfilling, especially on the moments of success. I have managed to find means to increase the pleasantness of my personality, but along with it comes memories I would rather leave buried at the deepest parts of my mind. I guess the best thing for me to do now is to train myself to be unaffected by the worst of my memories. And I daresay that would be as simple as making a dragon calm after saying an extremely stupid joke (where the heck did that come from?!?!).