looking through someone else’s eyes
My brother has been rummaging through some stuff in my mum’s room, and he stumbled across a few of my old spectacles, which he then placed outside for me to see. He found only two of the perhaps dozens of glasses I have accumulated from the past 7 years. I guess I broke most of them, since I was not exactly the kindest to my spectacles, yet even so, finding these old ‘viewfinders’ brought a ‘new’ outlook in my life. Why ‘new’? I do not believe these views to be exactly new, since generally, what I am doing is just to find my way back to the situations that had shaped or had broken me. But they are new since one does not really know the things that are happening to her life at the time they are happening, for all of it is really just a blur; people realize all they can long after the ‘things’ have come and gone.
The pairs of glasses I, rather, my brother, has found were the ones I had when I was in my sophomore year in high school. One pair was the only pair I have ever had that had tints on it. The tints were of a bright blue shade, and I remember having the lenses originally placed in a funky set of frames, which were really just a pair of shades whose lenses I did not really appreciate, and could not see properly through to begin with. I remember the phrase ‘seeing the world through rose-tinted glasses’. Though these glasses weren’t exactly rose-tinted, they generally gave me a sense of well-being while I wore them. Another pair are the ones I now call ‘Lisa Loeb’ glasses. I remember Lisa Loeb having unique specs, and even though my pair weren’t exactly like the ones she has, they still remind me of her. These glasses were made of black plastic, and most may view them as geek specs, where a few rock-star oriented people would view them as stylish. I do not really know why they resurfaced, perhaps to remind me of who I was and how much I have changed, but then again, for what reason? Here comes again the context of faith, where everything happens for a reason. A reason, as the present moment requires, I am yet to discover.