pissed
I am beyond pissed. Either I am just taking things too seriously, or people are just becoming too irresponsible for my senses to take. But this entry has no space for my anger just yet. I came here for a different purpose, which I shall now fulfill.
Yesterday was the first time I cried in almost three weeks. I wonder how I looked like for the past few weeks? As far as I know, I always had this smile pasted like some part of a collage on my face. Did my smile look awkward? Did I give anything out? Why the hell should I care about how I looked like in the first place?
I remember what happened last week. I just finished cutting, and I had this beautiful smile on my face. I can’t really remember what the smile was for: was it for self-preservation, secret-protection, or finding satisfaction in what I just did to my self, I can’t quite say. So I was walking towards my class, again, with this smile on my face. Upon reaching the room, a classmate approached me saying something I can’t remember, when he noticed the cuts on my arm. Being the curious little cat that he is, he JUST HAD TO ASK!!! What was once a smile turned into a dark expression I can’t quite explain (considering the fact that I can’t see my own face then, save feel the aura that was emanating from my very core). If I had a samurai then, I would have slashed his head clean off his neck.
Morbidity has been a frequent visitor in my head. It has almost overrun Irony, and one of these days, it just might be successful. I guess comfort comes in different shapes and sizes, even if it comes in one wherein people would think worse of you. Ha! SCREW PEOPLE!!!
July 13th, 2007 at 12:56 pm
“I am beyond pissed”
~ i should fear for my life and not comment on this blog but i’ll try to be brave and see what i can write. xD
“I came here for a different purpose, which I shall now fulfill”
~ ah what is purpose? you should read my friend j3dinkiz page. purpose is to BE.
“If I had a samurai then, I would have slashed his head clean off his neck.”
~ahaha! i love bloggers with a good sense of humor!Ü they sell samurai on the streets every Kadayawan. i think.
“I guess comfort comes in different shapes and sizes, even if it comes in one wherein people would think worse of you. Ha! SCREW PEOPLE!!!”
~ wow. you should find better people. Yeah, and screw others. They don’t feed you anyway. ahahaha!
July 13th, 2007 at 10:48 pm
i sense much fear in you, fear leads to anger, anger leads to hste, hate to suffferrring ^_^.. as boss Yoda loves to quip evry now and then..
on a lighter note..
ano last name ni boss Yoda?? aber??
Bomb!
get it? Yoda Bomb!! bwahehehe!cracks me up always. crazzy kurneh.
keep your sense of humor. you’d be ok.IF you want to be that is..>;p i don’t know you but my frend melvs was concerned enough to be concerned about this person who was commenting in his blog. so i’ll intro myself. i’m nikki and i’m a newb blogerista and yes i sometimes like to put in my nose in other people’s business,got lots of time in my hands kasi. so there. sorry kung nakasagasa po.i’ll shut up now and just yak at my blog>;p
October 29th, 2008 at 8:35 pm
Thanks for writing this.