three years of abuse
This is the last straw. I am so tired of people having to abuse me and take me for granted. Today, I will declare a war.
My classmates are a good example for the saying “People use and abuse.” They are one of the worst groups I have ever been with. I feel so worthless when I am with them. Lest I should finally kill someone, I have made the decision to distance myself from them. Sometimes, this tactic works. But sometimes, people just cannot take an effing hint.
Maybe I am not respectable enough. Maybe I am too sensitive. Maybe they were plainly born to make my life miserable. Or maybe they were absent when God was handing brains out. I just cannot stand it anymore. Screw all of them. They need me more than I do them, goddamn it! SCREW THEM!!!
We have an exam for Strength tomorrow. I do not bring books with me unless I have a class for the day, but I decided to bring my book with me today, hoping that I could get to study this afternoon, and have the entire night to do my Methods paper. Why was I so effing stupid?
I made one of the worst mistakes of my life when I lent her my book. I thought she was going to return it right after having it photocopied. I was hoping to do my assignment and study for my exam from 12:00-2:30 in the afternoon. She returned the book at almost five.
She wasted more than three hours of MY LIFE!!! What the F!!! We are not supposed to waste anything that isn’t ours!!! SCREW HER!!! I hope she finally gets what she effing deserves.
She has not invested in my favor bank. I, on the other hand, has invested so much in hers, that if I asked her to do anything, she would have to do it. Anything. Now, why should I let her push me around? Without her beauty, she is close to nothing. Screw her.
God. Three years of abuse. How could I have gotten through it? From now on, no more free-riders. There is no free meal, and as sure as hell, any meal from me would have to be extremely expensive.
I hope she gets to read this. At least I would not have to shout at her in front of many people. If she does not get to read this, then pasensya siya. Mas mabuti pa siguro kung magpapakamatay siya. At least marami ang sasaya.
This is the last straw. I am so tired of people having to abuse me and take me for granted. This entry is made for the sole purpose of declaring a war with Joy Anne Marie Solano.
“Screw all of them. They need me more than I do them, goddamn it! SCREW THEM!!!”
You do something for someone not because they ask you but because subconciously, you know that when you help someone, they help you in return. Well, that is how i help. I help people when they are in need, not because they will return the favor but because i want to.
I only need them to talk with or to learn from. I only see people as friends IF they are really friends. If they are not, they are just paintings nailed to the wall. Popular but totally useless.
Make this as one of those unending life experiences that you should do better. Quarreling with another is not the key unless you are out of options. So ask, yourself, are they really worth your time? so you don’t talk, so you don’t even see that person exist. If that person will not understand why you are doing this, it is useless declaring this so-called war. what will you gain from it? Respect? How?
Don’t get me wrong, I’m 100% at your back. I’m trying to lend a hand. When you want to hurt someone, hit them with a velvet glove but inside an iron fist.
i embarrass people at work, call them names, even curse them from time to time, yet they love and thank me afterwards.
“hit them with a velvet glove but inside an iron fist”.
Think about it.
Comment by cow — March 6, 2007 @ 4:23 am
Hmmm… Thank God I have finally managed to calm down. I am not talking to her. I am not hoping to finally get the respect I believe I deserve. I have even given up the illusion of plucking her eyes out using big wooden spoons. I guess by not talking to her, I am giving her the hint to just leave me alone. I would be able to do so much better without her bothering me.
I guess you just have to end those relationships that make you a worse person. I am just pretty amazed since I allowed her to take advantage of me for three years. Three years of slightly retarded growth because of one person? I guess that’s a fair enough share of obstacles coming from one person alone.
Comment by andie — March 6, 2007 @ 5:45 pm
“I am just pretty amazed since I allowed her to take advantage of me for three years”
now you’re learnin! now make it consistent. Ü
Comment by cow — March 7, 2007 @ 4:17 am
go baliw. nagmana ka talaga sa kuya. at least i don’t declare war against someone sa net. hehehhee…
Comment by BatangYagit — March 21, 2007 @ 6:46 pm